I've been
dancing since I can remember... but more specifically, 17 going on 18 years. Thankfully, there hasn't been a time in my life when I
thought to myself, 'I hate this, why am I doing this?'. Which I think is pretty
amazing because, also since I can remember, I've been scheduling my life around
dance classes, rehearsals, recitals, and competitions and so on... Whenever I
am invited somewhere and can't go, the response is always, "I can't, I
have dance." I have missed out on things like family dinners with my best
friends, graduation parties, girls’ nights, school functions.... But when I
think back on it, as much as I wanted to be there and still wish I could've
been there for some of them, they don't seem like major things that I missed
out on, the biggest ones were probably 3 of my best friends' graduation parties
this spring. But they understand, they always have.
I can't
imagine my life without dance. When I'm tired and don't want to go, as soon as
I get there everything changes. My day does a
complete 360. I know it's a cliché and as a dancer I hate using this
saying, but it's so true! When I'm dancing, I dance my emotions. If I'm
in a bad mood, I dance my feelings. There it is. That's it. I dance my
feelings. When I'm in a good mood I swear my dancing is better, when I'm having
a terrible day, I dance better because I'm getting out the frustration of the
day.
When I
dance I can see it happening my whole life, in a company, as a teacher, but
more than all of that, at Disney. My most recent
dream, as of 3 or 4 years, is to dance at Disney World in FL. I want to be a
performer. Every time I perform, I'm living! There is nothing better
than performing. My favorite part is the feeling that makes you want to smile
the whole time. It's a feeling that I still haven't nailed down, I can't tell
if it's the music, the movements, the people watching, the people I'm dancing
with... I've got nothing. But I know that I seriously love that indescribable
feeling!
Dancing is the only thing that I'm, both, incredibly
confident and incredibly shy about. I like to think that my love for dancing
shines brightly when I'm dancing, because when I'm talking to certain people,
I'm instantly self-conscience about my dancing career. That is something that
I've been working on because of how much dance has become apart of my life this
year.
Dancing is something that will always be apart of me even if
it never amounts to a career. It will be something that I will want my kids to
try, that I would always gladly recommend to friends to try, and something that
I will always be doing.
