Dancing Through Life

I've been dancing since I can remember... but more specifically, 17 going on 18 years. Thankfully, there hasn't been a time in my life when I thought to myself, 'I hate this, why am I doing this?'. Which I think is pretty amazing because, also since I can remember, I've been scheduling my life around dance classes, rehearsals, recitals, and competitions and so on... Whenever I am invited somewhere and can't go, the response is always, "I can't, I have dance." I have missed out on things like family dinners with my best friends, graduation parties, girls’ nights, school functions.... But when I think back on it, as much as I wanted to be there and still wish I could've been there for some of them, they don't seem like major things that I missed out on, the biggest ones were probably 3 of my best friends' graduation parties this spring. But they understand, they always have.

I can't imagine my life without dance. When I'm tired and don't want to go, as soon as I get there everything changes. My day does a complete 360. I know it's a cliché and as a dancer I hate using this saying, but it's so true! When I'm dancing, I dance my emotions. If I'm in a bad mood, I dance my feelings. There it is. That's it. I dance my feelings. When I'm in a good mood I swear my dancing is better, when I'm having a terrible day, I dance better because I'm getting out the frustration of the day.

When I dance I can see it happening my whole life, in a company, as a teacher, but more than all of that, at Disney. My most recent dream, as of 3 or 4 years, is to dance at Disney World in FL. I want to be a performer. Every time I perform, I'm living! There is nothing better than performing. My favorite part is the feeling that makes you want to smile the whole time. It's a feeling that I still haven't nailed down, I can't tell if it's the music, the movements, the people watching, the people I'm dancing with... I've got nothing. But I know that I seriously love that indescribable feeling!

Dancing is the only thing that I'm, both, incredibly confident and incredibly shy about. I like to think that my love for dancing shines brightly when I'm dancing, because when I'm talking to certain people, I'm instantly self-conscience about my dancing career. That is something that I've been working on because of how much dance has become apart of my life this year.

Dancing is something that will always be apart of me even if it never amounts to a career. It will be something that I will want my kids to try, that I would always gladly recommend to friends to try, and something that I will always be doing.